Faint, pushed to the side for now- but still lingering. So whatever she had started to say, whatever she was going to tell them, 'This isn't working out', 'I just don't love you', she lets the words die away, and she pretends to have forgotten what she'd said in the first place, the taste of the words still there. Maybe they pull her close, like she's a live vest. Maybe, sometimes she thinks about telling her partner, her lover, her what EVER that this shouldn't work, this isn't a healthy relationship, she wants out, she wants out, /God/ does she want out, but they go and do that thing that drives her crazy again, something that she's worried she'll never get again with anybody else, something she shouldn't even be getting now. 'I close my eyes to conjure up something, but it's just a faint taste in my mouth.' She doesn't even care that it's so unfair. She doesn't love them anymore, but she wants to believe she does, so she feels whole when they hold her.

And, as long as they're offering, they're telling her everything they can give her, they're making promises, they're coddling over her and kissing her and loving her and she knows it's wrong, but she'll take it, because she doesn't feel like she deserves any better.

The person they're in a relationship, the person they tell themselves they love, will probably give them almost anything, because the feelings are mutual, a double sided toxicity. 'I take as much as I can get, I don't take any regret.' My InterpretationI feel like this song is about somebody caught in a toxic relationship, one they sort of don't want out of, but they know in the back of their mind that they have to.

Dum dum dum song whoa